He’s devastated me but he’s also made me happier than I’ve ever been.
How do I keep calm when I have a mind that runs wild and insecurities strong enough to actually kill me all because there were a few dumb ass mother fuckers who ruined me and made me this way.
I can’t even just like a dude and be happy, no. My mind tricks me into thinking absurd things and I’m almost positive that, despite the thoughts, no one is really out to get me just to hurt me.
I feel insane and stupid.
Seeing something you don’t want to see and immediately feeling like your stomach ate your heart and it’s all coming up way too fast.
Try to love yourself as much as you want someone else to.
I definitely need one of those really long hugs that escalate to sex from a very specific cute dude bro and I’m 100% disappointed and sad that this isn’t and won’t be happening soon.